Chappell Roan has opened up about contemplating taking her own life – and the help she sought to stop herself.
The 26-year-old singer, whose real name is Kayleigh Amstutz, hit a low point in the years before she landed her debut record deal.
In an interview with Rolling Stone, she explained a combination of the wrong medication for her bipolar II condition and a reliance on a social media app affected her health.
She said, “I started gaining a lot of followers when I was being really insane on TikTok… I wasn’t sleeping… I was on the incorrect meds. I had the energy and the delusion and realised that this app is fuelled off of mental illness. Straight up.”
Roan revealed that she had been suicidal up to that point and, Rolling Stone reports, in 2022 “actually planned how she would do it”.
Realising she had hit rock bottom, she sought treatment through outpatient therapy.
She told the magazine, “I realised I can’t live like this. I can’t live being so depressed or feel so lost that I want to kill myself. I just got my s**t together.”
Roan went on to release her debut album in 2023 which has proven to be a slow burn – rising up the charts to hit number 1 earlier this summer, a year after it was released.
Expressing gratitude that her rise to the top was slow, she said, “I would not have been able to handle any of this even a year ago today. It would’ve just been too much.”
